I stopped taking the phentermine for a week, gained 3 lbs, then decided to go ahead and take it again. During that week I quit I ate a bunch of crap and didn't exercise at all. So I am back to exercising and limiting my portions and we will see where this goes. I am back down to my 268-69. I really desperately want another 20 lbs off before the end of the year so that we can go back to trying to have a baby. I could really start trying anytime I want but determined to lose that 20 more lbs. I will NOT ever let the scale see 300 lbs again! This is determination.

After thinking about it some more today I am going to go ahead and stop taking the phentermine. I still have 3 weeks worth of pills left and I think I will go off of them until December and then take what I have left. Hoping that the break will cause another big loss when I start back up. In the mean time I plan to start keeping track of calories to ensure I am eating enough and going to get myself back to the Y and start working out again. It is about to start getting cool enough that I would have to go there to exercise anyway. Might as well use the membership I am paying for. The tough part is that I don't have the KidZone anymore so I will have to go around Ryan's schedule. I will make it work out some how.

At a completely discouraging stand still on weight loss. For over a week I have been 268-69. Not doing a thing differently it's just completely plateaued. Still taking the phentermine but I really feel like I might as well not since it's not doing anything right now. :( I forgot to schedule a follow up appointment and need to call and do that but I am frustrated and don't want to go in there and see their scale tell me I'm stuck. Not giving up yet but I am very discouraged right.

I just realized that I really want to have a log of all my weigh ins somewhere so I am going to start one here and just edit it as it goes.

Starting weight 9/20/13-292 lbs
One month weight 10/11/13-270 lbs
10/20/13-268

269 today!!! I may have to take myself to the Y this afternoon. It's supposed to rain so that might prevent me from walking outside.

Ugh I need to break through this barrier and get myself into the 260's. We went to a birthday party yesterday and I ate pizza and a very small piece of cake so that was kind of a splurge for me. Waivering between 270-71 the past few days and I would just love to see the scale say 269.

I am having a hard time seeing the changes the weight loss has brought too. I hope it's more obvious to others when looking at me but when I look at myself of course I am more critical. I thought when I looked at my body in the mirror this morning that my top tummy fat roll looked a little smaller and my back fat is starting to look a little more trim as well. It's such a very small difference so far. My BMI is also finally under 40!!!It's 39.29. That's pretty huge for me! Once I got under 275 I weighed the least I have weighed in probably 5-6 years. I think I was around 270 when I worked in medical records and that was about 6 years ago. I think I need to take an almost naked pic of me so that I can look and see the difference in a month or two.

Obviously I have not done a good job of keeping up here. One month in and I am down a total of 22 lbs! I am totally amazed! I have gone from 292 to 270 in one short month! I am really super excited to see what this next month brings me. It's going to be a little harder doing this during the holidays but I am all in now and nothing can stop me. I was originally shooting to get down to 250 before the end of my 3 months of phentermine but having the success that I have had I have decided to go for 240. I am very certain that I can lose another 30 lbs in the next two months. I won't be stopping after that so that is just a short term goal. Ultimately I think I would like to get myself under 200 lbs but that is going to take some time. I just know that I NEVER want to go back and I will do everything in my power to move forward, keep hitting my goals, and maintain my loss.