This whole last week was a complete flop for me. On Monday we went and looked at an apartment and decided that we are moving. So just like that things got turned upside down and my stress level shot through the roof. I am a stress eater. I ate McDonald's twice last week and also ate a Freddie's burger one night after picking Ryan up from work. I also ate a crap ton of cookies this week. So for the whole week I only had a 1 lb weight loss. It's still a loss but knowing if I had followed my diet I could have lost a lot more than that sucks. Today starts a new week and I started tracking my points again and I WILL do better! I am so tired of barely starting something and then quitting. What am I teaching my kids by being a quitter? They deserve to have a healthy mom, not a fat mom who can't run and play with them. I WILL do this!

Ending week one of Weight Watchers and the scale this morning said I was done 4 lbs! My weight fluctuates anywhere from 279-286 but I sat right at 279 this morning. I will have to lose a few more pounds to really believe that this is doing something but I definitely feel like I am off to a good start. I was 279 lbs when I got pregnant with Ava so even a pound less than this I will be below my pre-children weight and weigh less than I have in probably 4-5 years! That feels awesome!

Today I did not count points but was very consciencious and aware of what I was putting in my mouth. I pretty much did my normal for breakfast and lunch and ordered a salad when we went out for dinner so I feel fairly confident that although I did not count that I stayed within my limits and still felt satisfied. I had quite a few points left over for the wee so I splurged and had a piece of cheesecake. My failure of the day though was after we went out Ryan wanted a dilly bar from Dairy Queen and I ended up getting one too. If I hadn't had the cheesecake that probably would not have been so bad. I am still doing WAY better than I ever had at this dieting business and this is only week one so I am pleased.

Dear delicious nacho doritos,
You made have gotten the best of me today but next time we meet, I shall be the victor.

The journey begins

This is day 3 of Weight Watchers and it is going so well that I decided that I should blog my journey. My page title, "I'm melting," is because I plan to melt away all the extra nasty pounds that I have accumulated and find the skinny person I know is inside me trying to get out. My starting weight is an alarming 283 lbs. At my very heaviest weight pregnant with Olivia back in December I weighed 324 lbs! At my 6 week post partum check I weighed 298. I managed to lose a little bit on my own cutting back on portions but that was not enough and I was plateaued so it was time to step things up.

My first weight lose goal is 5% of my body weight which would put me at 268 lbs. I plan to take small baby steps to start. So far I have manged to stay within my points with a few left over at the end of the day. Today I picked up a piece of cheesecake to reward myself for a job well done and then put it back and bought some fruit from the salad bar instead. I feel very pleased with myself over this small victory. Eventually I need to incorporate some type of exercise in for maximum weight loss and wellness but I feel like I will take baby steps and get used to counting and staying within my points first.